"Anger dwells only in the bosom of fools."- Albert Einstein

Anger... There are so many emotions that are attached to that one little word. There are tears,screaming,and silence that can also accompany anger. For me, tears are the most common and the first to occur. Silence slowly follows in second.

I am typically very slow to anger. I will listen to ALOT before I blow my cap. Except for when it comes to my "mommy" skills or about my daughter. Now that I am a mom there is one thing I have no tolerance for and that's mother's that have no idea how much of a miracle a healthy child is, or better yet a child in general!

I think most of that comes from working so hard to keep Elizabeth healthy. It breaks my heart to see my daughter struggle.DO NOT get me wrong I do not want to change my daughter!!!!! Most moms have no idea what it is like to see their child struggle to grasp a sugar packet and yell in frustration when her tiny fingers are rebelling against her. Someone made the statement to me that "Once you think about it, everything it takes to have a healthy baby, it really is a miracle." That statement is so true. until you sit down and think through the motions you have no idea. I wonder how many people just stopped to pick up something to think of all the muscles it took?I tend to go into a pity party after Elizabeth has these moments. If I ever gave into it I envision myself sitting in the middle of the floor, cradling Elizabeth, all the while surrounded by tissues. Lets be honest, how childish and pointless would that be? I wouldn't be able to make things easier for Elizabeth and I certainly can't change the thousands of moms out there that take it for granted. 

My point I'm getting to is:

I know first hand that anger can eat at you. It can wear you down, all the while breaking your spirit. It can make you question "why me?". I am still learning to let go of anger. My anger is not because of her diagnosis but because having a child that is healthy is not something to take lightly. My anger only holds myself back. I let my anger interfere with myself and my family. My prayer for myself and anyone in this situation is that you will turn your anger over to The Lord. Let God guide you in the direction you should go. 

I once heard a sermon on anger. The evangelist spoke of a woman with a heart full of anger at her ex husband. His advice was simple : pray for that person and in praying for that person you may be the one whose feelings change.