That statement is as profound as the man who preached it. To me, this can be applied to many situations. Especially us parents. Each child is different. Each child needs different things. I questioned my situations many times asking "Why me?" I think part of me still questioned it until Sundays sermon. I was, and in some ways still am, not qualified. I barely knew what to do with a typical child much less a special child. I had no idea I'd practically earn my nursing and Respitory therapist degree in 4 months. I was in no way prepared to learn a complex life long diet. I sure had no idea what to do with a child who won't eat anything. In no way was I qualified to almost lose my child twice. I was no qualified to see my child undergo 5 surgeries and one leaving her with a colostomy bag for 8 weeks. I had no idea what picc lines, NG tubes, TPNs, ventilators, colostomy bags, and sat monitors were.
I am a firm believer that God in many ways is still qualifying me. But in so many more ways I'm so glad he called me. Elizabeth forced me to use faith I had no idea I had. She pushed me to a prayer life I have always dreamed of. She has introduced me to so many people that I'm honored to call friends. She has gifted me the opportunity to enjoy a baby for longer than most mothers.
I'm still learning how to deal with the grief. I'm still not sure that it ever completely goes away. It may never. But the call... The calling is definitely worth it!
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